(Thank you for those that responded to my frantic post, I needed it). I think what I have just mostly been realizing as of late is that I am not as happy here as I once was. Not dramatically; it's just become time to move on. I've slowly stopped hanging out with a bunch of local uni friends because even with them, I'm really lonely here. My career interests have as much a future here as somewhere possibly better. There are better & more options for schools for me elsewhere. There is a possibility that this job can help me transfer to a similar one easily in LA. I would like a new apartment & wide open non-SF streets. People have been freaking me out about massive SF earthquakes any day now T__T But we'll see.



I really like this dress, paired with the blazer I got from Charlotte Russe, for work @ the office.

Today was another asshole moment. I was listening to BUCK-TICK ”月世界 / Gessekai” on repeat at work all day, thinking over & over how lovely it would be to just have some bright, sunny himawari beaming from a vase in my window~~freshn up my house~ Not that the whole song has anything to do with them XD but the whole mood of longing, yearning. I just absolutely love them, & the lead's sexy dreariness XD But I got off work, & everything was cheery, until I flipped out on my boyfriend because I thought he said something rude to me under his breath, & then wouldn't repeat it. Gave him hell, self-righteous as always. Only to come into the apartment, he disappears, emerges from the kitchen & disappointed says "these were for you"... & it was a bunch of GORGEOUS, FULL sunflowers... I couldn't believe it...
Man, if I honestly told you guys how often I fuck up.


Our kitten x3 you wouldn't know, but he's growing pretty massively, haha~ ♥

There is a lot more patience,
a lot more gentleness,
& a lot of more self-understanding I must seek ♥
I'm really gonna be the better person I want to be,
without slaying everyone else with my perfectionism.

Who is planning to be around the Anaheim, Orange County, Los Angeles area around November??





The lovely *DIAMOND* ladies are hoping to have another little meet around that time, but we'll be moving away from the LA area & enjoy a little weekend around Disneyland. Why of course it's not a huge photo op ;) So if that sounds good to anyone who is local or thinks they'd be able to make it into town for that, pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease start planning now.

*looks at robofight o.O! looks at yume_ninja O.o! & diamantepearl! & pinksugarichigo now!! & everyone!*

I think there may also be a special/specific dress theme x3 Well, obviously gal, but we'll let you know which. You can be assured we're gonna STAND OUT from the crowd.

Not to mention I remember someone telling me a story about how they went in a group dressed as yamanba to Disneyland, but they were forced to 'de-costume' because it was taking away the Disney spectacle LOL.
I forget who told me that story.
ANYWAY--PLAN plan plan. There will be hotel information & all the little details filled in as we go; it'd just be nice to get a tally of who thinks they might want to/be able to go. Please comment if you can! or just get in contact with one of us, including my girl michichanlove!! Hopefully this will be enough time for people to get things together & figure out what they're doing at the time. Come hang out >) !! I promise I won't molest anyone :0 even if we all look too great together~~

...If it's a hime theme, I'm gonna wear mostly black anyway. I love winter darks with bright-coloured hair. Mmm, need an excuse to buy more black lace anyway.



Everyone else, sorry, just ignore this~~ Unless you also want to come<3
Gonna make a different post later. Also dropped my ancient yaplog & hopped on the ameblo bandwagon. Need to re-sharpen my skills ;n;

Too lazy to really upload pictures...still XD I don't have as
many as Michi anyway, not to mention most of them are of us plastered
as fuck, and being such that's also why I forgot to take more photos, haha~

You know half of my head was black root before I underwent an
amazing MIRACLE @ Paul Mitchell... for about $60 too, the best fucking
cut & colour I've had in my life. So why my hair photograph so dark XO ??
( Blonde. )
See here it looks so light... & I started blowdrying to keep the light/softness.
It must be the lighting...I notice for a lot of gals their hair photographs
darker but still >_> it's better than last year at least... when my hair
gets a little oily it just turns brown... last year it would turn green XDDDD
& it was breaking in half U.U ... XDDD
;;;;;; i should be more ashamed HAHA

I stole these from Michi...like everything else XD
I am only showing these ones of me for now because
1. I'm a whore. & 2. they belong to Michi, & she posted a grip of them @ michichanlove visit!!


I'm sure you recognize these faces X33 MICHI & SHAWNAAA~!!
Yeah only wore my grey lenses after all cause my black ones make me look like 0u0 LOL.


These were my nails... very last minute. Definitely no good with
any decals or anything but I like to wear them crazy long~ stole the
colour idea from Tsubasa's blog.
& I COULDN'T WAIT TO COME HOME TO MY LOVIE T_____T I hope no one got annoyed
that I wouldn't stop talking about him. I just tell people he's my fiancée now XD
& LOOK WHAT I CAME HOME TOOO

T_______________________T he is toooooo sweet. & I'm a sucker for flowers XDDD
Red carnations are definitely in my top favourite..not that I told him.
He knows me too well x3 >_> so what, they circulate more air into the room XD
Oh & a cute mirror I needed since it was 10$ than the sizes I find around here...
I hate a lot of cute things (or pretend to, or else I look 12yo .__. ) but I love
cake & strawberries together XDD & some cheap dramatic lashes since the only good
ones around here are $3-4...... I gotta find more discount places, I suck >(

I'm broke, but when I get money, my less-costly priorities
1. POPSISTER 1st issue!! (release the 17th!) @ http://community.livejournal.com/tsubasapop/43749.html
2. GIGI D'AGOSTINO collectible LP, single, vinyl, & album
3. TSUBASAISM book.


Thing about GAL!REV was that everyone there was so incredibly friendly.
We all were gawgeous, we are all MASTERS OF POSE, & we all loved the photo ops XDDDD
It was a really really pleasant surprise that all the catiness on the intranet doesn't
translate to real life & that the western gal movement really IS all solidarity.
More on it later. Gotta get back to these 20-page papers U_________________________U